“Hey, it's me. Looking for some cigarettes. I know I need to quit. I have decided that I'm gonna move to Cleveland tomorrow, to get away for a little while, see my dad and try and see if I can work on fixing my life up there. Because, things just aren't going very well down here. The program is very nice and everything, but they are trying to get me into a mental institute so I have to run far away. That way that doesn't happen. Yeah, they don't think drugs are my problem. I have an underlying mental issues and are trying to get me into this place called MH(?) Theatre. Mental health care, but either that or they want me to complete a six months drug treatment program and they don't really think I need it, but it is just like a kind of temporary fix just until I can get out of here, but, as of today, I've got something to look forward to. I think I am gonna go and move. I'm gonna leave. I know I always say that leaving doesn't solve the problem, because the problem is within myself, but I think by changing my environment might help just a little bit. I'm gonna go up there for a little while and see how things work out. I hope everything works out well. I should be leaving on the Greyhound tomorrow, so, I'll try to keep in touch. Keep you're out there, definitely and hoping everybody is going to have a great weekend. And hopefully, I will talk to you guys again soon. Bye.”

“Hey, it's me. I just had this crazy memory, I guess you could say, I had a crazy memory, yesterday I was talking to a friend and she mentioned, oh, we were talking about reading, you know, like what I do on weekends and stuff and so basically I sit outside and chain smoke and I'll read books all day. She's like oh yeah what are you reading, and I'm like well I'm between 3 right now, I'm reading like this parenting one and then I'm also reading a book called flying to the mind and a new one that I had just found like I think the day before and it's called human development and learning and my friend said remember that the other day when we were talking about he was trying to call me about a book but he couldn't remember the name of it. Anyway this was the book that he was talking about and it's really weird, because I'd ran into it at a totally separate place which today after we gonna talked about it and I didn't even associate that he was being connected until today it's really funny, or yesterday I mean. But anyway so reading through it, I've only read like, jeez let's see, I'm on chapter 2 and I've already read 19 pages and I've, I mean confirmation of things that I already knew but it was ___ in like 1956 so ___ take it all like you know, well anyway I'm not gonna sit and talk about this book but instead I'm gonna go ahead and get off the phone and read it, so I guess I will update later on. See ya.”

“Hey Leonard ___. It's about 9:30 tonight. Where the hell have you been? I hope you were doing well. I've been so busy forting(?) like a couple of times. In fact for I started at the store room. I like it here. I'm getting things accomplished one step at a time. I've obviously decided to take your advice on quickly moving to the program and telling them what they wanted to hear. So I can get closer. I thought that counselors would be able to solve my problems but after much contemplation I am coming to the realization that the reason I'm having problems is because I'm intelligent. I'm thinking of different way than about an average society and quite difficult for other people who accept on. It's not that I'm trapped in a single perspective. It's all that it's not they say omen and then therefore capable of making decisions based that. If I let them try to get in my head then I'll be vulnerable to conform to a society full of boltnot(?). I'm learning how to share with them that I can I am conformed. ___ all well understand beyond average thought and intelligence. Anyway just a thought that I'd like to like I'd like to share with you. I did a little research for you and found some information that isn't all that significant but mainly that can help people. I'd rather not discuss by finding it in words. Just be sure to remind me to tell you about it the next time we chat. I miss you but I'm exhausted and I'll give you a call tomorrow and I love you and remember it's not that it's it's not that the glasses just have to be half full it's simply that it's just a glass and it's like we're supposed to be which makes I need you learn to love it. Just be and accept it for what it is. What it is and what it could have become. That's my new quote. The things in life that make you feel certain ways. Certain start by changing the way you think about everything and then life will be that's the way it should and then you will accept them and then you'll be happy about that. I would like to be working on that book we discussed your biography. I'm going to try to get a voice recorder and lend it to you along with transcribing text. All you have to do is record what you said in our conversations and I'll organize them and tra(?) and transcribe them as well. It's easy work for you and it's been something I've been wanting to do. Because you're the only one I have left and I love you. Thanks for being here. Love you ___.”

“Hello hello, it's me I am having an awful day today, and I just I realized I hadn't called or I haven't written anything recently so thought It was about time I was due for another entry well I started rehab today or rehab of sorts and I've been clean for 60 days yeah go me, and I watched my first AA meeting today it's pretty cool and I'm 5 months along and don't forget to mention it's a boy it's a boy it's a boy and I'm so happy and well so me and Matt are getting on very well we started talking again I know I said that we were talking again while tilldil(?) but were still talking and getting along really really well so that's good I made some new friends and they all at the half way house with me but they are real cool they straight they are good and everything is going real well I'm getting everything back in order getting everything back on track and so that's my update for today and I guess that's it bye.”

“Hey, it's me I just got off the phone with Mathew and we were talking I'm gonna go there and get him tomorrow there's this patient. I had a great day today I slept until about 11:00, 10:00 something like that and then Matt came down and we met up and we went for a walk we had a great time and then after that I came back to my room and read a little bit out of my book and then I fell asleep and then I woke up and then these people these girls from USF(?) came and they we all made a pizza we burned it but we ate it anyway and then after that we watched a movie and then I read some more of my book hung out ___ and get off to sleep so I guess I'll catch up to you tomorrow bye.”

“The date of this entry is April 17th 2008. 5:55pm. Beautiful day it is today well I had my phonagram(?) this past Tuesday and I'm having a baby boy. Yeah. The pictures on are perfect and I'm gonna post then soon. My due date is no longer 9 13 but now it's 9. I'm sorry it was 9 12 but now it's 9 13 of this year. I moved in the opera house today. It's going well so far. We just got back from the grocery store and I ordered pizza for dinner and I ate three slices. I got my cell phone switch out for a brand new one and a new charger. It's black instead of silver now. I talked to Mathew today. He seems excited about me moving into Alpha. We are getting along great we are going to try to meet up tomorrow around lunch time”

“Great news. I am having a boy. I'm so sorry that Marvin wake ___. I'm having a boy. I'm having a boy. I'm having a boy. Anyway that's all I wanted to say is I'm having a boy. 4 and a half months down. 4 and a half months to go. Very happy. He looks so ___ got 2 arms and legs that's good and he's ___ I'm gonna pot some pictures soon. So keep a look out. So I'll talk to you later.”